It was almost 9 years ago when I started writing this blog. "A Purpose Producing Life". It seems so weird to me that I will no longer be posting in this medium. I have sometimes shared far more of my personal stuff than I should have, but I'm mostly glad I did.
I am writing this post to say goodbye to this website and to close a chapter in my life that has changed me and the lives of so many. When I started posting, I had no idea of who would actually even view my blog or even find what I was saying of any interest. However, over the years I have witnesses in the tens of thousands reading my blog from all over the world. Can you say "far exceedingly, abundantly, above all you can ask or think". (Eph 3:20).
I thought it would be amusing to use my 16 year old year book picture. I needed something to represent just how much my life has changed. Also, the fact that you never stop being you, yet, how much change takes place in your life throughout the years. This picture is a clear reminder of that.
Attached here is Letting Go (Part 1), https://apurposeproducinglife.blogspot.com/2010/06/letting-go-part-i.html#comment-form. I believe you need to read my very first post to better understand where I was when I started writing this blog in 2010. Which brings me to my next question.
Do you really have to let go of something in order to begin a new thing?
Well, when I started this blog, I was letting go of fear. I made a decision to move toward what I wanted, although I had no idea of what the outcome was going to be, or what people would think or feel about me by sharing deep parts about my own real experiences.
Needless to say, The words in these posts have helped me over and over again throughout the years. These words have helped me to discover who I am, and also, who I don't want to be. These words have helped me to step out on faith and believe God for the impossible. They have helped me to recognize and accept my own failures and weaknesses. These words have healed my brokenness and lead me toward God and the direction He was leading me in.
I believe writing "A Purpose Producing Life" has equipped me. Not only for letting go, but also for the purpose of empowering me to step into the new with hope and expectation to succeed in fully becoming who God has purposed me to be.
Now in 2019, I have the courage to let go of what has become an old thing, so that I can now move forward and create the new, again.
Much Love,
Nicole Payne
