Has there ever been a time in your life when you just knew it was time to go?
Well as for me, I can think of a number of times. I don't mean like its time to go to work, or anything so common. I'm talking about a time where you have uprooted your life to move into a different place of change without knowing what's on the other side.
I can freely say, this was a very awkward time for me. I was comfortable where I was in my life and everything made sense. I had control over my life, so to speak. However, there was a part of me that was very unsatisfied and there was a longing for more of God in my life. I was very busy at church with many different projects of ministry, but something was still missing.
A particular time was an experience I had in 2005. Before the season changed, my identity was clear and concise. I had all my ducks in a row. I knew who I was and it was all gravy baby. The first clue my life had changed was when I was offered an opportunity to go on a ministry trip overseas. I knew then God was speaking to me and answering my prayers. Although it was an amazing opportunity, some did not want me to go, and were not at all happy with this change.
In old Nicole fashion, I started wondering if I should go or not. Yet, in my heart I knew better. Well, while I was contemplating whether or not to go, the Lord gave me a dream to settle any and all doubts I was having, once and for all. (maybe one day I'll share that dream).
Anyway, I said yes to God and His destiny for my life and there was no turning back. After I got home from that trip, I was walking in a new mantle. Meaning, I could no longer function as I did in the past. The Holy Spirit opened Himself to me in a way that I had never experienced before. I simply could not ignore that uncomfortable place of complacency. I knew it was time for me to just go.
The amazing thing is, once you've stepped into that new realm, you don't have to worry about if you can let go of somethings because I promise you, God will help you by placing a hedge between you and your past, so much so, that some people from your past, will reject and push you out.
I'm not gonna lie, all hell broke loose.
If I had never stepped out, I'm sure I'd be doing something in the church, but never on the level that God has elevated me. I had to come to a resolve within myself to just go, even if I had to go by myself. As you can see, I did. Yes I was scared, ashamed, unsure, but however, full of joy, faith, and expectancy of hope for all God had for me.
Needless to say, my life has never been the same. I don't even resemble that person I use to be. I went from being a good leader in ministry to becoming a daughter of the Most High God, who is living her purpose and furthermore, helping others to fulfill their destiny.
