I Decided..........

How many of us have given up on something because things in your life fell apart, or just got way too hard to keep going?


Well it seems this has been the story of my life, or so I thought. There have been numerous attempts of business, weight loss, relationships, careers, and etc.... Some with great success and others with enormous failure. But through it all, what I've discovered  is I had to make a decision of whether or not to keep going or to stay where I was. 


Although some of the stuff I had encountered was not my fault, it really didn't matter.  Life will throw things at you and some of those thing are so big and destructive, that it seems you can never get back on track.  For some reason, God saw fit to walk out a path for me that has taken me to some really ugly places.  However, everything I've been through has brought me to a place of victory and authority.  Nonetheless, not just for myself, but also, for those who will be impacted by my life.  


Nine years ago, the Lord gave me the ministry of Purpose Productions, and the foundation of my ministry is (Romans 8:28) "For we know that all things work together for the good of them who love God, who are the called according to His purpose."


WOW!!


Sounds deep and spiritual, huh?  Well, little did I know of the process I would endure to become exactly who God said.  One of the hardest struggles I've faced was myself and all of my failures. It seems like its been one thing after another that have come to knock me off the place God gave.  The thing that intrigues me most is the fact that I've sought the Lord and God moved, but somehow situations and circumstances brought about certain changes through hurts and disappointments and some of those experiences just left me in a place of grieving.


Funny thing is, for such a long time I didn't know I was grieving, I just thought I was getting my barrings and giving myself a chance to catch my breath, so to speak. There is a scripture in the bible where Paul says "you were running well, what hindered you?"   


At this point of my life, I honestly believe I would not be as effective had I not gone through all I have endured, as well as overcome.  This doesn't mean God could not have taken me a different way, but for some reason God chose to take me in this direction.


Bottom line is, I believe God has transformed my life to become the ministry He has given me.  As a result, the Lord is producing His purpose through my life on this earth.  However, I had to make a decision to believe God and then keep on believing because each day begins with a decision.